Alone In The World

I can't wait for next year she thought. There will be so much to do and so many people to hang out with. She had recently discovered a whole new world in herself. Joey was ready to take it all in. Nothing was going to stop her from having fun and hanging out this year. She wasn't going to stand on the outside and look in this year. She had made herself that promise. Last year was so hard with the unfortunate family events and hectic schedule. It's time to be me she thought. She finally arrived at her first destination. She walked in to recruitment. What better way to be social then to join a sorority? The week went by and she soon got discouraged. She hadn't been accepted in the one she wanted. She drove home in tears hoping that this year's dream hadn't faded already. A few days passed and she slowly calmed down and decided she wasn't going to break her promise. She would just re-rush in the spring, besides there was that club one of her classes was starting and she was excited about that too. Weeks went by and she remained busy as ever with school and homework and just home life. More family issues arose and she found herself in a lonely place yet again. It's ok she thought. This year will be better. Looking forward to doing more with the group she walked in to class. Yet again she was let down. The group she yearned so much to be a apart had taken off and without any help from her. She seemed to be pushed out of the way. With no one to turn to she silently walked out of class. The next few months became a blur, she barely made it to class and was struggling with every aspect of her life. Silently she let the tears fall every night, wishing her dream had come true. Then on night near Halloween she lay in her bed thinking about her life. About how alone she had become. How no matter how hard she tried it seemed she couldn't push forward. A tear fell down her face, with many more quickly following. She thought to herself, I guess I'm just meant to be alone in the world. What is the point of being in the world when you're all alone? She couldn't think of one and she fell asleep exhausted from her thoughts.
Today we are going to a funeral. No one knows what happened. She was so young and the autopsy showed no sign of damage. The rain poured down and the sky was dark gray. Everyone was saddened. Joey was to young to be gone already. As everyone entered the cemetery they were at a loss for words. Her headstone bore the words she had thought last. The clouds darken and the lightning and thunder sounded louder than ever. There on her headstone was four words that spoke of the pain she held inside and never could bare to share. As the rain worsened the last words everyone had to remember Joey by were Alone In The World